im crushing on... Caleb

im crushing on... Arthur of PBCOM

a college friend told me about him...

im crushing on... Raymond

got this photo from a certain magazine. no longer remember which one. im sorry... =(

For my 7000th hit

well here it is. its nothing much. cant think of any. so im posting a video i took one sunday morning. hope you liked it. =P hear from you soon! =P

Cam Whoring

i liked these two photos. well there are lots of photos i liked from the silly shoot i did with my friend. this one with the pillow made me look stupid. so i kinda liked it. hahahaha!


this one i liked as well. uhm, i gotta go now. i need to go to the salon and have my hair done. i dont like it anymore. hope itll turn out well. post photo of it soon.

regarding the video. will try to post one next week. i wont be able to post anything till tuesday next week cos im being sent to Cebu for work this week. uhm, see you soon i guess. =P

some " just this week" photos

i visited a friend last week, and i slept over her place. that nght we got so bored that we started cam whoring. hahaha! i just hope you like my photos. im not all muscly. lol. will try to work on it soon as im back in school. will be studying again. no, i didnt drop out from college. lol. i finished my first degree. now im taking up my second degree. hahaha! i love school.


i dont know whats with me and this serious shot. im not really the serious type. im a goofball most of the time. but when i need to be serious. im hella one. lol.


i tried to smile differently. i looked weird though. lol.


heres my usual smile. i like smiling. lol. im hungry as i write this post. sigh. i need someone who knows how to cook, or pretend to know how to. at least, i know hes that into me. haha! remember the guy who was playin me, well he came runnin back. haha! even if i sorted of wanted him back, which im not really certain of, i dissed him. hahaha! im not being evil am i? will try to post his photo soon. lol.


uh, some candid shot at the cam whoring session. lol.

id like to hear from you all. do drop me some messages at my email - whatifikissyou at yahoo dot com. i reply to all my messages. well i still can do cos only a handful emails me. hehehe. and each email brightens up my day. you know who you are. i really appreciated the messages. oh! and first time visitors, leave me a message at my tagboard. lemme knoe what you think about my blog. ill try to work on it. cant wait to go back to school! =P

i got played at...

i got played at and it wasnt that bad afterall. at first i thought i was hurt. but soon i realized. i was having fun. i guess this is bad? ive been hurt too many times, i start to actually enjoy it. im somewhat upset. cos i want able to prolong it. i was planning to play along longer. but i guess it is inate for humans to yearn for the need to be loved and cared for. i will count to three and i will be ok. one........................ two............................... three................................... im happy again. =)

my house

i used to live in a bigger house in kamuning. five rooms, two kitchens, one dining room, three baths, foyer, garage, library, and two living rooms. but when i started attending the University, my mom decided to live in our house closer to the Uni. since my dad died two years earlier, i guess, its better for us to live in a smaller house. a townhouse in fact. so when we moved, imagine all the stuffs we had to get rid of. lol. well, most of it we sent to the farm. a small part we gave away. our house is much more intimate and cozy. ive never seen a house like mine. soon as you open the gate, it sort of gives you an inviting glow.


see how the garden is in full bloom? haha! cos thats one of my hobbies. haha. i love to garden. i know its domesticated and so far from being cosmopolitan. but yea, we were raised as kids leading a simple, grounded and contented life. id spend one weekend to take care of the plants. i love my house. it has two rooms, one bath one kitchen one dining area and one living room. and no garage. lol. i love living a simple life. i wish i could share it with someone soon. being single do get to be lonely at times. only when i run out of things to do, thats when im reminded that i am single.

i need a banner

ok, i need a banner. seriously. lately, i havent been inspired. sigh. so will anyone be so kind and sweet and cute and hot and all good stuffs i cant think of right now, and be loving enough to make me a banner? can someone make me a banner? pretty please! =P you may email it to whatifikissyou at yahoo dot com. thank you! i think the dimensions are 200 x 750 pixels. ill give you a kiss as a thank you gift. =P

some last year photos... and recent thoughts...

i love dorks. well, not entirely dorks. but dorks who are hotties. imma dork. but not a hottie. hehehe. why do i love dorks. uhm, makes me feel secure i guess. since i got lots of insecurities bout myself. i guess blogging makes me deal with my insecurities in a very exhibitionist way. hahahaha! oh well. i love staring into the camera. making my eyes look bigger. lol. the photo below makes my nose look big. i like my nose. lol. its not perfect. but i think its cute. lol.

my lips look like i smoke. but i never do. well when i was younger, i remember, my dad would always make me light his cigarette. then he died of lung cancer. so since then, i never did like to smoke. i dont really hate smokers. i just see them as lazy people. ionno why. sigh. im so judgemental. im bad.

i like this photo. but i guess the lights on the face wasnt perfect. still i like it. im hungry now. these photos were taken last year.

everytime i get hold of a camera. i take about 50 shots of myself. then id always make compulsary stupid/dorky head shots. i like behaving like a dork. im one. but im tryna not to be one. i need to grow up. sigh. *kiss* *kiss* my friends tell me im sucha flirt. im not. right? *winkz* =P

i wanna gain weight. been sick lately. havent been able to eat well. and exercise. i wanna give myself more time. im not growing any younger now. sigh. i need someone to take my breath away. lock me in his arms. and make me feel like im being loved. even if it aint true. i just like the feeling of being loved. its... uhm.. fun. =P