i got played at...

i got played at and it wasnt that bad afterall. at first i thought i was hurt. but soon i realized. i was having fun. i guess this is bad? ive been hurt too many times, i start to actually enjoy it. im somewhat upset. cos i want able to prolong it. i was planning to play along longer. but i guess it is inate for humans to yearn for the need to be loved and cared for. i will count to three and i will be ok. one........................ two............................... three................................... im happy again. =)