im the False Messiah?

its been a while since i started writing down my post. haha. ionno. maybe being a year older has something to do with it. or maybe me being so busy trying to forget ill be older has kept me from writing down random thoughts. there are so much i would like to write down here, but i fear my family and friends are not ready to read them. i think i should move away from posting photos. haha. i mean, posting photos with no texts on what i feel at the moment. im hungry ive been trying to eat lots. gain weight. i was sick for four days after christmas and five days after new year. so yea, i lost weight. hmn. i hate it. i feel so skinny and fat at the same time ive been meeting guys. haha. i want to write about people ive met and what we did and the stupid things ive done lately. lol. but im scared they are at times too private. just this afternoon, i was with my friend gino, and i saw his friends blog. this guy was my college "friend". we dont really hang together. he with a different crowd. id say hes one of those guys youd bump into each other say hi and check up on how things are with him, bid goodbye and then walk about and start thinkin about your busy day. that was how we were in college. i sensed theres something about him. told all my friends from college but they wouldnt believe me. then this afternoon, i confirmed all my suspicions. lol. oh well. for three days i had a crush on him back in college. then like the usual me, it faded away. haha! i still remember how we talked about masturbation while eating together in mcdonalds. lol. well, it wasnt even close to a date, we just chanced upon each other, and me being the jovial and friendly guy, and decided to share the table. lol. funny. oh well. i cant describe what im feelin right now. so weird. lol. oh well. at least my gaydar was in tune since college. i was right all along. lol. tonight will be the first day of UP Fair. its an annual thing at the univeristy of the philippines. a big thing. 20,000 people go every night, filling the entire sunken garden. imma go there. prolly date someone. haha. then mess. ionno. lately ive been really promiscuous. gino, is the only guy who knows lots about my adventures. lol. hes a funnee guy. fun to be with. this morning, gino showed me a test site okcupid.com. i took the test and heres my result.i guess being in a relationship with players has turned me into one. ive been played at all the time and i guess, life has turned me into someone i really hated. lol. im sorry. i didnt mean to laugh. i dont like playing with guys. its bad. but i cant help it. i like them, then i fall for them, then i realize, ill just tear them into pieces. so i start to move away everytime things start to be "too perfect". sometimes, i just like goin out with guys. then they fall for me. then i just walk away, not knowing that they "loved" me. its weird. im sorry. im being mean. im not even cute in the first place. lol. well, ionno why i play with them. thats why i kinda like going out with players. cos i like playing along. but at times, they even fall for me. so i dunno. maybe im destined to be single. or ionno. crap. i need someone to take my breath away. someone strong smart and affectionate. i need to be with someone before i turn 19. lol. or ill have to celebrate my 18th birthday again next year. lol. im going back to school this june. im going to study. my mom wants me to fix my passport and go to chicago. but, ionno. its lonely there. manila is hella fun. so i guess ill just study again instead. take up fashion design / clothing tech or education, and be a teacher for highschool. lol. well see.

my eyes are hurtin... and im hungry...

i dunno what to do with my eyes. theyre hurtin lately. when i got back to the Agency after todays audition, there was a this guy whos givin free eye check-ups. but ionno, i was busy soon after i got in. so i never got the chance to have my eyes checked. ive never worn glasses my life. my mom has one, same with my sister. so ionno. ugh. i hate glasses. although i can look more dorky if i have one. hmn... now im considering having em. lol. crap. im hungry. i miss belmont chocolate chip cookies. sigh. i should stop eating lots and go start jogging again. i dun wanna have a belly of sorts. i will start working out harder. push my self harder, till i pass out or sumfin. i wanna cook something. prolly spaghetti, but after my post. i gotta put up more of my crushes. lol. latez... =P oh, you can try subscribing to my feed so you wont hafta check my site everytime. although you checking my site aint bad as well. well, its all up to you. send me an email. lol. but u ionno. lol. im hungry.

another random penguin babble... lol.

ionno. i just want to write down anything. lol. so i woke up early this morning. round 4am. lol. i cant believe it. so i got into the agency around 630am, which is really really early, cos usually id get in by 11am. it was ok. i had one quick meeting, and lots of calls were made. im currently selling two artists under the agency. then i went out for lunch. then made calls again soon as im back. then soon after i had to meet up with josh and macky, both from the agency. vtr schedule this afternoon with alex. so we headed to unitel. there were a couple of cute guys, fully made up. lol. i find it weird when guys wear make-up. but yea, it doenst mean theyre gay. they look gay tho. lol.what else. uhm, so after the vtr, we went to north park. we ate. then i headed home. now im here. somewhat hungry. but i guess im ok. im thinking of posting new photos of mine. actually i took some photos of me before and im still thinking if i should post it or not. let me know. lol. ill prolly update the other blog im maintaining. basically, thats it for now. =P oh, i saw happy feet last friday. it was soooooooooo cute. lol. hey sam! i told you penguins are cute. hahahahahaahaha! ==========> penguin!

im also thinking, i think every post of mine should have photos of me. hahahahahaha! me and vanity. not all vain people are cute tho. lol. look at me as your first example. lol. =P

writing and feeling random...

i havent written anything the longest. its been ages since i wrote down my thoughts. my sis is back from Germany. She been doing training for the UN. shes aight. Some random thoughts. water shortage in manila. im bored. ive done the blog of my organization in school. its doin aight. somewhat more presentable than mine. lol. im hungery again. had burgers from mickeyDs. hungry still. im waiting for someone to call me. im bored. ive been posting my blog in irc. since the sitecounter i subscribed to turned out to be not free at all. lol. i dun wanna spend anything lately. im saving for a house of my own. lol. i know its silly, but its fun to think that youre saving for something you cant buy anytime soon. lol. im hungry. muffin, my cat is doin ok again. shes startin to be a headache again, and thats a good sign that shes back. lol. my friends are all broke, so they cant go out with me. its been a while since ive gone out with them. i missed them. lol. im hungry. i want to go to Mr. Kebab. eat keema. be dorky. i wanna go to Tokyo and be unknown. lol. im hungry. i miss the rain. i like it when it rains. i wish id gain weight really soon. love is weird. i really think love is weird. its there and its not there. lol. sigh. i was never been articulate so i cant really explain what im feeling right now. all i want is to be random, and be dorky. being dorky. i gotta put up more cool fixins to my blog. like feedburner shiet and rss buttons and subscriptions and everything. so this day, my mom was talking to me and my sister about Richielieu, the cardinal of King Louis IV. Hes one hella smart guy. i think imma read that book soon as my mom is done. its been a while since ive read anything. i gotta start reading again. im starting to forget words. alzheimers, is that you? lol. crap. if you have alzheimers, youre suffering but youre not really aware of it. i just hope everyone suffers without them realizing it. then its be all fun. lol. communism sux. big time. i cant wait till next year. it feels like something nice will happen next year. but me being optemistic. i think im pretty optemistic about everything, with me being happy always. buy happiness is always subjective and relative. lol. so yea. im hungry. i gotta go down and get something to eat. until then. =P

this is where everything started...

so yea, ill start writing na. i wont care na if i write silly stuffs, cos normally i do naman. so yea.

im always hungree. lol. id really love to meet guys who can cook. itll be cute din if you try to cook for me. lol.

my next posts will be about my past boyfriends. lol.

so yea. lol. i wont talk trash bout them. maybe share some of my thoughts about life and relationships. lol.

crap. im hungree. anyone here knows howta cook?

latez....