Konnichiwa! Watashi no namae-wa Maruko-san dess. hope i said that right. lol.
im sort of a fan of beauty pageants, and ionno why, but i thought it was a dorky way of doing a segway for the Top 10 Visitors by Country. lol. im sorry. im really bad at this. lol. *kiss*
since i am going back to the Uni to study, i guess i was right to choose to study Linguistics and Major in Nihonggo. O yasumi nasai!
Weeks before christmas, my mom and my sister decided to go out for sunday lunch. This is me being dorky at the park. lol. with Mr. teddy, which my sister bought for me. :P
say hello to mister teddy. lol.
me and my mom, goin through the menu at a local restaurant.
er... the weird do. ionno why its like that. lol. i look diffy and iffy here. lol.
ok, i need a banner. seriously. lately, i havent been inspired. sigh. so will anyone be so kind and sweet and cute and hot and all good stuffs i cant think of right now, and be loving enough to make me a banner? can someone make me a banner? pretty please! =P you may email it to whatifikissyou at yahoo dot com. thank you! i think the dimensions are 200 x 750 pixels. ill give you a kiss as a thank you gift. =P
i love dorks. well, not entirely dorks. but dorks who are hotties. imma dork. but not a hottie. hehehe. why do i love dorks. uhm, makes me feel secure i guess. since i got lots of insecurities bout myself. i guess blogging makes me deal with my insecurities in a very exhibitionist way. hahahaha! oh well. i love staring into the camera. making my eyes look bigger. lol. the photo below makes my nose look big. i like my nose. lol. its not perfect. but i think its cute. lol.
my lips look like i smoke. but i never do. well when i was younger, i remember, my dad would always make me light his cigarette. then he died of lung cancer. so since then, i never did like to smoke. i dont really hate smokers. i just see them as lazy people. ionno why. sigh. im so judgemental. im bad.
i like this photo. but i guess the lights on the face wasnt perfect. still i like it. im hungry now. these photos were taken last year.
everytime i get hold of a camera. i take about 50 shots of myself. then id always make compulsary stupid/dorky head shots. i like behaving like a dork. im one. but im tryna not to be one. i need to grow up. sigh. *kiss* *kiss* my friends tell me im sucha flirt. im not. right? *winkz* =P
i wanna gain weight. been sick lately. havent been able to eat well. and exercise. i wanna give myself more time. im not growing any younger now. sigh. i need someone to take my breath away. lock me in his arms. and make me feel like im being loved. even if it aint true. i just like the feeling of being loved. its... uhm.. fun. =P
i knoe its very dorky. i will try to post one video of mine for every thousand hits i get. lol. this is a nice way of checking my progress. cos you know, i been sick lately. losin weight. i hate it when i lose weight. sigh. i try to eat a lot lately. but i dont get enough sleep. ill post this video, then hopefully after 1000th hits ill post another one and see the difference in tersm of mass gained and muscle definition. hahahh. im so effin vain.
i was andres place a while ago and was told that hes been atendin dance classes. coolie. ill try to post a vid of a blog friend of mine tiggah. he dance well with his equally hot boi poohburr. when andre goes to the US, will try to introduce them to each other. cos Andre wants to learn from Tiggah. the moves and all. hes been studying under EUJay, a guy from new york or cali? dont know much. will post a new vid of andre next time. visit his blog AndreCalixto.com
ive never liked oil on my skin. it makes me feel warm. my face is always oily. lol. good and bad. good cos i wont get wrinkles that early. bad, cos my friends say "an oily face is a sign youll die young...". die young? hmn... will i be cute inside a coffin? i dont wanna look all wrinkly and shit when i die. told my sister ages ago to make the mortician do a faint smile on me. lol. cos if id show my teeth smilin, when im dead. uhm... its sorta freeky. lol.
so im on the ground. staring at the sky. watching clouds hurry across and chase each other. playfully they take my attention away from the busy day that it was. the faint voice told me to close my eyes and forget bout my worries. i surrendered. i lost my way in a deep deep slumber... suddenly, i felt a tug on my feet. slowly i opened my eyes... looking down on me, was a glimpse of heaven... whatifikissyou?
some random photos. hahaha. head shots here....
head shots there. i gotta post shots of my puny little body soon. but im scared itll make me look, slutty. im not a slut. ive been busy with work and sick. i wanna finish the website soon. so i could start working on other things thats been lagging. uhm... what else. im hungry. like the usual. i had chikkin and "pansit" today. haha. im hungry again. im broke. uhm. i dont want to be a player. being to cautious and being a player can be easily confused with each other. lol. most of my friends dont agree. lol. but inno. i just dont wanna get played at again. but, being with players... make things... exciting... i just need to meet someone so effin perfect, hed make players look so plain. lol. take my breath away... please? whatifikissyou?
its been a while since i started writing down my post. haha. ionno. maybe being a year older has something to do with it. or maybe me being so busy trying to forget ill be older has kept me from writing down random thoughts. there are so much i would like to write down here, but i fear my family and friends are not ready to read them. i think i should move away from posting photos. haha. i mean, posting photos with no texts on what i feel at the moment. im hungry ive been trying to eat lots. gain weight. i was sick for four days after christmas and five days after new year. so yea, i lost weight. hmn. i hate it. i feel so skinny and fat at the same time ive been meeting guys. haha. i want to write about people ive met and what we did and the stupid things ive done lately. lol. but im scared they are at times too private. just this afternoon, i was with my friend gino, and i saw his friends blog. this guy was my college "friend". we dont really hang together. he with a different crowd. id say hes one of those guys youd bump into each other say hi and check up on how things are with him, bid goodbye and then walk about and start thinkin about your busy day. that was how we were in college. i sensed theres something about him. told all my friends from college but they wouldnt believe me. then this afternoon, i confirmed all my suspicions. lol. oh well. for three days i had a crush on him back in college. then like the usual me, it faded away. haha! i still remember how we talked about masturbation while eating together in mcdonalds. lol. well, it wasnt even close to a date, we just chanced upon each other, and me being the jovial and friendly guy, and decided to share the table. lol. funny. oh well. i cant describe what im feelin right now. so weird. lol. oh well. at least my gaydar was in tune since college. i was right all along. lol. tonight will be the first day of UP Fair. its an annual thing at the univeristy of the philippines. a big thing. 20,000 people go every night, filling the entire sunken garden. imma go there. prolly date someone. haha. then mess. ionno. lately ive been really promiscuous. gino, is the only guy who knows lots about my adventures. lol. hes a funnee guy. fun to be with. this morning, gino showed me a test site okcupid.com. i took the test and heres my result.
i guess being in a relationship with players has turned me into one. ive been played at all the time and i guess, life has turned me into someone i really hated. lol. im sorry. i didnt mean to laugh. i dont like playing with guys. its bad. but i cant help it. i like them, then i fall for them, then i realize, ill just tear them into pieces. so i start to move away everytime things start to be "too perfect". sometimes, i just like goin out with guys. then they fall for me. then i just walk away, not knowing that they "loved" me. its weird. im sorry. im being mean. im not even cute in the first place. lol. well, ionno why i play with them. thats why i kinda like going out with players. cos i like playing along. but at times, they even fall for me. so i dunno. maybe im destined to be single. or ionno. crap. i need someone to take my breath away. someone strong smart and affectionate. i need to be with someone before i turn 19. lol. or ill have to celebrate my 18th birthday again next year. lol. im going back to school this june. im going to study. my mom wants me to fix my passport and go to chicago. but, ionno. its lonely there. manila is hella fun. so i guess ill just study again instead. take up fashion design / clothing tech or education, and be a teacher for highschool. lol. well see.
theyre one hot couple and shit, i was bloghopping today and i chanced upon tiggahs blog. but i wont tell ya. hahahahahahah! kidding. just read about my blog and youll see it. lol. its been three or four years that ive been crushing on them. a friend from cali gave me a photo. then i ended up downelink friends with both, then... crap im talking like a kid that got his wish on christmas day. i think i just should shut up. lol. much love to this lovely couple. they always remind me that being single sucks. lol.
i love rockets...
it always remind me to reack for the stars... ill make a shirt just like this... awww... lol.. dork.
so my friend Honey, did something ridiculous. he used my photo to find out who my celebrity look-a-likes are. hahahahahaha! cant help but laugh at the results. interestingly, my crush Won Bin rated as the one i look like the most. haha. coolie. maybe this is love. lol. could we be soulmates? hahaha. fuck, im a dork.
i like this photo. lol. 
i wish everyone a merry xmassy day! haha! fuck, im sucha dork. err.
Google Analytics is a fun and powerful way of tracking your websites acitivity. I gotta start understanding most of the tables there. lol. too much information, and i still dunno what to do with them. So domestic visitors of my blog says most of you who view my blog are from either Rizal or Manila. hmn... does that mean there are more gay guys in those areas? hmn... lol. why the hell are there few guys from where im at? so thats why i hardly get to date people from my area. lol. crap. i gotta go out more often. lol. but im too lazy to go out for dates. lol. convince me. lol. latez.. i gotta sleep now. i need rest. i cant be sick no more. sigh. gimme medicines. sigh. latez... nyt as well...
ionno. i just want to write down anything. lol. so i woke up early this morning. round 4am. lol. i cant believe it. so i got into the agency around 630am, which is really really early, cos usually id get in by 11am. it was ok. i had one quick meeting, and lots of calls were made. im currently selling two artists under the agency. then i went out for lunch. then made calls again soon as im back. then soon after i had to meet up with josh and macky, both from the agency. vtr schedule this afternoon with alex. so we headed to unitel. there were a couple of cute guys, fully made up. lol. i find it weird when guys wear make-up. but yea, it doenst mean theyre gay. they look gay tho. lol.what else. uhm, so after the vtr, we went to north park. we ate. then i headed home. now im here. somewhat hungry. but i guess im ok. im thinking of posting new photos of mine. actually i took some photos of me before and im still thinking if i should post it or not. let me know. lol. ill prolly update the other blog im maintaining. basically, thats it for now. =P oh, i saw happy feet last friday. it was soooooooooo cute. lol. hey sam! i told you penguins are cute. hahahahahaahaha! ==========> penguin!
im also thinking, i think every post of mine should have photos of me. hahahahahaha! me and vanity. not all vain people are cute tho. lol. look at me as your first example. lol. =P
i havent written anything the longest. its been ages since i wrote down my thoughts. my sis is back from Germany. She been doing training for the UN. shes aight. Some random thoughts. water shortage in manila. im bored. ive done the blog of my organization in school. its doin aight. somewhat more presentable than mine. lol. im hungery again. had burgers from mickeyDs. hungry still. im waiting for someone to call me. im bored. ive been posting my blog in irc. since the sitecounter i subscribed to turned out to be not free at all. lol. i dun wanna spend anything lately. im saving for a house of my own. lol. i know its silly, but its fun to think that youre saving for something you cant buy anytime soon. lol. im hungry. muffin, my cat is doin ok again. shes startin to be a headache again, and thats a good sign that shes back. lol. my friends are all broke, so they cant go out with me. its been a while since ive gone out with them. i missed them. lol. im hungry. i want to go to Mr. Kebab. eat keema. be dorky. i wanna go to Tokyo and be unknown. lol. im hungry. i miss the rain. i like it when it rains. i wish id gain weight really soon. love is weird. i really think love is weird. its there and its not there. lol. sigh. i was never been articulate so i cant really explain what im feeling right now. all i want is to be random, and be dorky. being dorky. i gotta put up more cool fixins to my blog. like feedburner shiet and rss buttons and subscriptions and everything. so this day, my mom was talking to me and my sister about Richielieu, the cardinal of King Louis IV. Hes one hella smart guy. i think imma read that book soon as my mom is done. its been a while since ive read anything. i gotta start reading again. im starting to forget words. alzheimers, is that you? lol. crap. if you have alzheimers, youre suffering but youre not really aware of it. i just hope everyone suffers without them realizing it. then its be all fun. lol. communism sux. big time. i cant wait till next year. it feels like something nice will happen next year. but me being optemistic. i think im pretty optemistic about everything, with me being happy always. buy happiness is always subjective and relative. lol. so yea. im hungry. i gotta go down and get something to eat. until then. =P
im happy about my NeoWOrks. it reminds me of a beauty pageant. i just hope all countrie s are represented. lol.
im liking Millia Rage of Guilty Gear. Havent had this liking for a characted since i met Rogue of X-men. F*ck, im sucha dork. hahahhahaha!
some stills of Millia Rage! lol.
now heres Millia Rage in action. Awesome combo... im kinda sucky in GG. lol.
