animated

wainbow

white top

cowboy hat

i dont look good with a hat on... tooo.... uhm... dorky... ;P

Would you like to be driven by him?

looking at this photo reminds me of my ex boyfriend when we went to his province. he drove me around town as we bought stuffs as we were preparing dinner for his family later that night. uhm, it was a saturday afternoon. maybe around 3pm, the sun was strong and the air was warm. i felt safe beside him. i like feeling safe. lol.

now, i feel safe again. tootsie roll. yes. tootsie roll. :D

photos from bEE

first photo was at shang makati's lobby. lol. was meeting blendy and bEE. uhm. of all places... funny thing, we werent even staying at that hotel. lol. oh yea, i remember why we went there. blendy had to use the.... id rather not say. lol. uhm, i look different here. ionno why. uhmm. i always look different. this is bEE aka keka baldemeca aka hooneybee aka bj aka booj aka b. uhm. taken at coffee bean gateway. after we watched dreamgirls. im hungry now... imma eat first.

Beauty Pageants

Konnichiwa! Watashi no namae-wa Maruko-san dess. hope i said that right. lol.

im sort of a fan of beauty pageants, and ionno why, but i thought it was a dorky way of doing a segway for the Top 10 Visitors by Country. lol. im sorry. im really bad at this. lol. *kiss*

since i am going back to the Uni to study, i guess i was right to choose to study Linguistics and Major in Nihonggo. O yasumi nasai!

A BIG Thank You!

Thanks to google analytics, i know who to thank. =) i would like to thank these friends who has helped drive visitors into my blog. much love and respect. will do a series of special posts on you and how much i appreciate your blog. until then. *hugs*

my 3rd vid for my 8000th

for that big 8000th. lol. im hungry. laterz...

old Christmas season Photos...

Weeks before christmas, my mom and my sister decided to go out for sunday lunch. This is me being dorky at the park. lol. with Mr. teddy, which my sister bought for me. :P
say hello to mister teddy. lol.

me and my mom, goin through the menu at a local restaurant.

er... the weird do. ionno why its like that. lol. i look diffy and iffy here. lol.

For my 7000th hit

well here it is. its nothing much. cant think of any. so im posting a video i took one sunday morning. hope you liked it. =P hear from you soon! =P

Cam Whoring

i liked these two photos. well there are lots of photos i liked from the silly shoot i did with my friend. this one with the pillow made me look stupid. so i kinda liked it. hahahaha!


this one i liked as well. uhm, i gotta go now. i need to go to the salon and have my hair done. i dont like it anymore. hope itll turn out well. post photo of it soon.

regarding the video. will try to post one next week. i wont be able to post anything till tuesday next week cos im being sent to Cebu for work this week. uhm, see you soon i guess. =P

some " just this week" photos

i visited a friend last week, and i slept over her place. that nght we got so bored that we started cam whoring. hahaha! i just hope you like my photos. im not all muscly. lol. will try to work on it soon as im back in school. will be studying again. no, i didnt drop out from college. lol. i finished my first degree. now im taking up my second degree. hahaha! i love school.


i dont know whats with me and this serious shot. im not really the serious type. im a goofball most of the time. but when i need to be serious. im hella one. lol.


i tried to smile differently. i looked weird though. lol.


heres my usual smile. i like smiling. lol. im hungry as i write this post. sigh. i need someone who knows how to cook, or pretend to know how to. at least, i know hes that into me. haha! remember the guy who was playin me, well he came runnin back. haha! even if i sorted of wanted him back, which im not really certain of, i dissed him. hahaha! im not being evil am i? will try to post his photo soon. lol.


uh, some candid shot at the cam whoring session. lol.

id like to hear from you all. do drop me some messages at my email - whatifikissyou at yahoo dot com. i reply to all my messages. well i still can do cos only a handful emails me. hehehe. and each email brightens up my day. you know who you are. i really appreciated the messages. oh! and first time visitors, leave me a message at my tagboard. lemme knoe what you think about my blog. ill try to work on it. cant wait to go back to school! =P

i got played at...

i got played at and it wasnt that bad afterall. at first i thought i was hurt. but soon i realized. i was having fun. i guess this is bad? ive been hurt too many times, i start to actually enjoy it. im somewhat upset. cos i want able to prolong it. i was planning to play along longer. but i guess it is inate for humans to yearn for the need to be loved and cared for. i will count to three and i will be ok. one........................ two............................... three................................... im happy again. =)

my house

i used to live in a bigger house in kamuning. five rooms, two kitchens, one dining room, three baths, foyer, garage, library, and two living rooms. but when i started attending the University, my mom decided to live in our house closer to the Uni. since my dad died two years earlier, i guess, its better for us to live in a smaller house. a townhouse in fact. so when we moved, imagine all the stuffs we had to get rid of. lol. well, most of it we sent to the farm. a small part we gave away. our house is much more intimate and cozy. ive never seen a house like mine. soon as you open the gate, it sort of gives you an inviting glow.


see how the garden is in full bloom? haha! cos thats one of my hobbies. haha. i love to garden. i know its domesticated and so far from being cosmopolitan. but yea, we were raised as kids leading a simple, grounded and contented life. id spend one weekend to take care of the plants. i love my house. it has two rooms, one bath one kitchen one dining area and one living room. and no garage. lol. i love living a simple life. i wish i could share it with someone soon. being single do get to be lonely at times. only when i run out of things to do, thats when im reminded that i am single.

i need a banner

ok, i need a banner. seriously. lately, i havent been inspired. sigh. so will anyone be so kind and sweet and cute and hot and all good stuffs i cant think of right now, and be loving enough to make me a banner? can someone make me a banner? pretty please! =P you may email it to whatifikissyou at yahoo dot com. thank you! i think the dimensions are 200 x 750 pixels. ill give you a kiss as a thank you gift. =P

some last year photos... and recent thoughts...

i love dorks. well, not entirely dorks. but dorks who are hotties. imma dork. but not a hottie. hehehe. why do i love dorks. uhm, makes me feel secure i guess. since i got lots of insecurities bout myself. i guess blogging makes me deal with my insecurities in a very exhibitionist way. hahahaha! oh well. i love staring into the camera. making my eyes look bigger. lol. the photo below makes my nose look big. i like my nose. lol. its not perfect. but i think its cute. lol.

my lips look like i smoke. but i never do. well when i was younger, i remember, my dad would always make me light his cigarette. then he died of lung cancer. so since then, i never did like to smoke. i dont really hate smokers. i just see them as lazy people. ionno why. sigh. im so judgemental. im bad.

i like this photo. but i guess the lights on the face wasnt perfect. still i like it. im hungry now. these photos were taken last year.

everytime i get hold of a camera. i take about 50 shots of myself. then id always make compulsary stupid/dorky head shots. i like behaving like a dork. im one. but im tryna not to be one. i need to grow up. sigh. *kiss* *kiss* my friends tell me im sucha flirt. im not. right? *winkz* =P

i wanna gain weight. been sick lately. havent been able to eat well. and exercise. i wanna give myself more time. im not growing any younger now. sigh. i need someone to take my breath away. lock me in his arms. and make me feel like im being loved. even if it aint true. i just like the feeling of being loved. its... uhm.. fun. =P

my very first VIDEO

i knoe its very dorky. i will try to post one video of mine for every thousand hits i get. lol. this is a nice way of checking my progress. cos you know, i been sick lately. losin weight. i hate it when i lose weight. sigh. i try to eat a lot lately. but i dont get enough sleep. ill post this video, then hopefully after 1000th hits ill post another one and see the difference in tersm of mass gained and muscle definition. hahahh. im so effin vain.

i was andres place a while ago and was told that hes been atendin dance classes. coolie. ill try to post a vid of a blog friend of mine tiggah. he dance well with his equally hot boi poohburr. when andre goes to the US, will try to introduce them to each other. cos Andre wants to learn from Tiggah. the moves and all. hes been studying under EUJay, a guy from new york or cali? dont know much. will post a new vid of andre next time. visit his blog AndreCalixto.com

im the False Messiah?

its been a while since i started writing down my post. haha. ionno. maybe being a year older has something to do with it. or maybe me being so busy trying to forget ill be older has kept me from writing down random thoughts. there are so much i would like to write down here, but i fear my family and friends are not ready to read them. i think i should move away from posting photos. haha. i mean, posting photos with no texts on what i feel at the moment. im hungry ive been trying to eat lots. gain weight. i was sick for four days after christmas and five days after new year. so yea, i lost weight. hmn. i hate it. i feel so skinny and fat at the same time ive been meeting guys. haha. i want to write about people ive met and what we did and the stupid things ive done lately. lol. but im scared they are at times too private. just this afternoon, i was with my friend gino, and i saw his friends blog. this guy was my college "friend". we dont really hang together. he with a different crowd. id say hes one of those guys youd bump into each other say hi and check up on how things are with him, bid goodbye and then walk about and start thinkin about your busy day. that was how we were in college. i sensed theres something about him. told all my friends from college but they wouldnt believe me. then this afternoon, i confirmed all my suspicions. lol. oh well. for three days i had a crush on him back in college. then like the usual me, it faded away. haha! i still remember how we talked about masturbation while eating together in mcdonalds. lol. well, it wasnt even close to a date, we just chanced upon each other, and me being the jovial and friendly guy, and decided to share the table. lol. funny. oh well. i cant describe what im feelin right now. so weird. lol. oh well. at least my gaydar was in tune since college. i was right all along. lol. tonight will be the first day of UP Fair. its an annual thing at the univeristy of the philippines. a big thing. 20,000 people go every night, filling the entire sunken garden. imma go there. prolly date someone. haha. then mess. ionno. lately ive been really promiscuous. gino, is the only guy who knows lots about my adventures. lol. hes a funnee guy. fun to be with. this morning, gino showed me a test site okcupid.com. i took the test and heres my result.i guess being in a relationship with players has turned me into one. ive been played at all the time and i guess, life has turned me into someone i really hated. lol. im sorry. i didnt mean to laugh. i dont like playing with guys. its bad. but i cant help it. i like them, then i fall for them, then i realize, ill just tear them into pieces. so i start to move away everytime things start to be "too perfect". sometimes, i just like goin out with guys. then they fall for me. then i just walk away, not knowing that they "loved" me. its weird. im sorry. im being mean. im not even cute in the first place. lol. well, ionno why i play with them. thats why i kinda like going out with players. cos i like playing along. but at times, they even fall for me. so i dunno. maybe im destined to be single. or ionno. crap. i need someone to take my breath away. someone strong smart and affectionate. i need to be with someone before i turn 19. lol. or ill have to celebrate my 18th birthday again next year. lol. im going back to school this june. im going to study. my mom wants me to fix my passport and go to chicago. but, ionno. its lonely there. manila is hella fun. so i guess ill just study again instead. take up fashion design / clothing tech or education, and be a teacher for highschool. lol. well see.

My birthday coming!

hey its my birthday this saturday! haha! im turning 18 now. haha! ive been 18 for 6 years now. haha! so yea. i gotta post new photos right? here there are. =P uhm.. i wish that i hit my 5000th visits before my birthday. link me and make posts about me. haha! =P only if you wanna. everythins cool howevers. =P