Would you like to be driven by him?

looking at this photo reminds me of my ex boyfriend when we went to his province. he drove me around town as we bought stuffs as we were preparing dinner for his family later that night. uhm, it was a saturday afternoon. maybe around 3pm, the sun was strong and the air was warm. i felt safe beside him. i like feeling safe. lol.

now, i feel safe again. tootsie roll. yes. tootsie roll. :D

i got played at...

i got played at and it wasnt that bad afterall. at first i thought i was hurt. but soon i realized. i was having fun. i guess this is bad? ive been hurt too many times, i start to actually enjoy it. im somewhat upset. cos i want able to prolong it. i was planning to play along longer. but i guess it is inate for humans to yearn for the need to be loved and cared for. i will count to three and i will be ok. one........................ two............................... three................................... im happy again. =)

my house

i used to live in a bigger house in kamuning. five rooms, two kitchens, one dining room, three baths, foyer, garage, library, and two living rooms. but when i started attending the University, my mom decided to live in our house closer to the Uni. since my dad died two years earlier, i guess, its better for us to live in a smaller house. a townhouse in fact. so when we moved, imagine all the stuffs we had to get rid of. lol. well, most of it we sent to the farm. a small part we gave away. our house is much more intimate and cozy. ive never seen a house like mine. soon as you open the gate, it sort of gives you an inviting glow.


see how the garden is in full bloom? haha! cos thats one of my hobbies. haha. i love to garden. i know its domesticated and so far from being cosmopolitan. but yea, we were raised as kids leading a simple, grounded and contented life. id spend one weekend to take care of the plants. i love my house. it has two rooms, one bath one kitchen one dining area and one living room. and no garage. lol. i love living a simple life. i wish i could share it with someone soon. being single do get to be lonely at times. only when i run out of things to do, thats when im reminded that i am single.

im crushing on... Daniel

so im on the ground. staring at the sky. watching clouds hurry across and chase each other. playfully they take my attention away from the busy day that it was. the faint voice told me to close my eyes and forget bout my worries. i surrendered. i lost my way in a deep deep slumber... suddenly, i felt a tug on my feet. slowly i opened my eyes... looking down on me, was a glimpse of heaven... whatifikissyou?

im crushing on... tiggah&pooh

theyre one hot couple and shit, i was bloghopping today and i chanced upon tiggahs blog. but i wont tell ya. hahahahahahah! kidding. just read about my blog and youll see it. lol. its been three or four years that ive been crushing on them. a friend from cali gave me a photo. then i ended up downelink friends with both, then... crap im talking like a kid that got his wish on christmas day. i think i just should shut up. lol. much love to this lovely couple. they always remind me that being single sucks. lol.

Kiwi

Ive seen this short clip in YouTube. i find it cute. =)

Think Think Think

I was bloghopping, when i chanced upon a friend of mine's blog. Shes KV, met here when she was still working for HIP. Now shes with Summit Publications. What follows is a copy of her post...

From the author of It's Called a Breakup Because It's Broken and He's Just Not That Into You, Greg Behrendt. It's quite a long read, but definitely worth it. Take your time and contemplate on each point, girls!

1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay.
2. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
3. If you have ANY doubt in your mind about a man's character, leave him alone.
4. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
5. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
6. Don't force an attraction.
7. Slower is better.
8. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
9. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck, no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
10. Have faith in God regarding your relationship, but don't let faith make you stupid. God does things decent and in order.
11. Don't settle.
12. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
13. If he keeps changing his mind about the relationship, take that as a BIG sign that he is unstable. Do you really want to be with a man like that?
14. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
15. Honorable men take care of their business and aren't involved in a whole lot of mess.
16. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
17. There's only one "reason" a man dumps you; he doesn't want you.
18. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
19. You really do have to kiss a few frogs before finding the prince.
20. Always put yourself and your happiness first.
21. Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
22. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.
23. If he doesn't call, he just isn't that interested.
24. Be honest and upfront.
25. Know when to cut the cord, don't be strung along.
26. Don't fall for the "I'm confused" role. Remove yourself from the situation to let him figure things out. But don't wait for him; move on.
27. If you want to have a clue as to how he will treat you, watch how he treats the WOMEN in his family, not just Mom.
28. There's more than physical abuse—there's emotional and mental abuse. If he causes any of them, flee.
29. You cannot change a man's behaviors. Change comes from within.
30. Don't let him place rules on you that he is not willing to follow himself—double-standard.
31. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are, even if he has more education or in a better job.
32. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
33. Demand respect and if he can't give it, he can't have you!
34. Don't compete with other women, but be aware that men are attracted to what they see.
35. If you think he is cheating, he probably is. Confront him right away and if you feel he's lying, let him go.
36. Actions speak louder than words.
37. Never let a man define who you are.
38. Never rely on a man for compliments, look to yourself for that.
39. Never borrow someone else's man.
40. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
41. Just because he says he loves you, doesn't mean that he won't hurt you and it doesn't mean that you are meant to be with him.
42. To use painful hard-won wisdom, "get it right" the next time.
43. Know that you deserve to be the #1 person in the life of the #1 person in your life.
44. Love is a verb.
45. Learn to give up your life-long task of trying to make someone unavailable—available, someone ungiving—giving, and someone unloving—loving.
46. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
47. All men are NOT dogs.
48. You should not be the one doing all the bending. Compromise is a two way street.
49. If you don't love yourself, you can't love anyone else.
50. You cannot mend someone else's broken heart.
51. You need time to heal between relationships. There is nothing cute about baggage. Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
52. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you. A relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals. Look for someone complementary, not supplementary.
53. Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
54. NEVER give more in a relationship than you are getting out of it.
55. Never become your man's "therapist."
56. When actions and words conflict, believe the actions. Respond to the actions.
57. A real healthy relationship requires two people. One person can end it, but it takes two to make it work.
58. Don't fall for the "I'm not the loving type" of man. When a man loves you, there is nothing in this world (within reason) that he wouldn't do for you.
59. Make him miss you sometimes. When a man always know where you are and you're always readily available to him, he takes it for granted.
60. Give him his space. Let him go out with his boys. Don't pressure him to spend time with you. You can't force a man to hang out with you.
61. If you wouldn't allow your daughter to be with him, you shouldn't.
62. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
63. Never move into his mother's house.
64. Provide financially for yourself and don't depend on anyone.
65. Never co-sign for a man.
66. Never believe you have the perfect guy and he is so innocent.
67. Never spoil your man; let him spoil you.
68. Never let a man mess up your credit.
69. When it's time to let go, let go.
70. Good men should be treated like good men.
71. Don't play games.
72. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
73. Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
74. Compatibility in terms of educational attainment, values, beliefs, personal and career goals, and socioeconomic status, are important.
75. Never date a guy who wears colored contacts.

Forests... and then trees...

Men are like apples on trees.
The best ones are at the top of the tree.
Most boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are
afraid of falling from above and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples
from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top are left
thinking something is wrong with them, when in reality, they are amazing.
They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who's
man enough to
climb all
the way
to the
top of
the
tree

jc

we were together the longest. 18months. then he beat me up. so i left him. we planned our lives together. i thought hed change so i kept silent. but i guess 1o times is enough? lol. fuck im so optimistic. lol. my friend told me, "bad things happen to good people.". then i thought, "that, or im just stupid. lol.". he cooks good. i missed it when hed cook for me. hes the first guy i introduced to my family and relatives as my boyfriend. lol. fuck, the things love would make you do. lol. i took him to our farm. he took me to theirs as well. i missed the feeling how hed drive me around the barrio, buy stuffs on our way back home and cook dinner. i missed lots of stuffs we did together. *sigh* risks. i am not certain if i am indeed risk-averse. lol. time will tell. =P

herci

hes the guy from down under. met him in friendster. we exchanged messages and email for quite sum time. then we started chatting on yahoo messenger. went on cam. and immediately, i fell in love with him. such a sweet sweet sweet guy. i was the happiest guy on earth then. *sigh* he went back to manila during their school break. we met in SM Megamall, while his mom is shopping there. i was effin freaked out. i didnt knoe what would happen so yea. and i fell in love again when i saw him. the following night we met. i missed the rain. i had to break up with him cos i dont think i can go on living that far from him, now that ive known how it is to live with him so so close. dammit. missed him much. so so much.

will

hes from la salle. hes sucha penguin. =P hes my second boi. was a member of the dlsu pep. what else? uhm, he now works for a call center. in ortigas. still living in bf intl? i wouldnt know. i loved the corned beef their katulong would prepare for breakfast everytime id sleep over. lol. his tita is in japan. so he speaks little nihongo, which was a major turn on for me. cos I LOVE JAPAN. lol. one day, we woke up and then he turned to me and said, "Ayoko na." lol. and i was like, "ok."

heart aches

well, my heart is aching. crap. i dont like how it feels. its like im having a hard time breathing. fuck, im so maarte. lol.

can i just say love a thousand times or till i get numb and totally go sick the second i hear that word again?

im no drama queen. but now , i think im better off like one. err...

can someone just cook sum mean pasta, and pour in sum rat poison, without me knowing?

im not suicidal, i think murder is a better option. but i have to be cute when i die. i dont want yellow froth oozing out of my mouth. well, i dunno how exactly one look like when they die of poisoning. ive been watching CSI my life and maybe i missed one episode which showed exactly that. crap.

i have to keep talking till im no longer mad, or jealous? hahahahahaha!

i should go date five guys in one day. lol.

i dont wanna spend more than one hour with a guy who is not attracted to me. but hey, at least i get to meet more people. and if they really like me, then chase me. lol. if not, its ok, investing an hour with me is worth it. =P

crap. i hate it when im like this. fuck. lol. can i just pop 300 balloons? lol.

i saw this episode in japan TV shiet. they were showing something about this store that is made up for customers to just tear down. lol. i wish there were shops just like that here in Manila. lol.

im hungree. lol.

i gotta write more. next time.

missed me?

crap.

lol.

silly mcwilly

hes my fisrt boi. lol. hes from singapore. really really cute. lol. smart. went to canada and broke my heart. but were friends now. =P missed him much. call him silly mcwilly. lol. crap, im sucha dork. lol. hes a fireman now. super cute. =P